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  • Shop Visitor

    Brooklyn, NYBrooklyn, NY
    → 7:09 PM, Dec 13
  • Uniquely Designed

    Sit down. Be yourself. Be prepared. Be attentive. Defy the voices. Be the thing you want to be. Write. Be playful. Be reckless. Remember that you are uniquely designed for the idea that is moving toward you. You are good enough. The idea is about to arrive.

    Nick Cave

    → 12:10 PM, Nov 23
  • Pause for a Moment

    Williamsburg, Brooklyn, NYCWilliamsburg, Brooklyn, NYC

    Cherish your old apartments and pause for a moment when you pass them. Pay tribute, for they are the caretakers of your reinventions.

    Colson Whitehead

    → 1:41 PM, Nov 22
  • Truly Senseless and Preposterous

    T.J. Clark · Frank Auerbach’s London: Frank Auerbach

    This episode has stuck in my mind because it’s as close as I’ve ever come to what is supposed to be the primal scene of modern art: the experience of making (or if you’re a viewer, seeing) something that is truly senseless and preposterous as it comes into being, unknown and unidentifiable, and therefore, if you’re lucky, a glimpse of freedom, a unique particular, a way to slip off the mind-forg’d manacles.

    → 11:30 AM, Nov 19
  • Carrying On, Backing Out, Moving on

    I’ve been thinking about backing out of my social media accounts again for some time. I’ve been here before. I’ve deleted, for instance, three or four Facebook accounts since 2008. I can’t remember when I stopped posting on Twitter but I deleted my account when Elon Musk bought it. And yet, I’ve always hung onto my Instagram accounts, not least because I signed up on launch day and felt, for many years — even after the Facebook/Meta acquisition — that it was somehow different from the other platforms. But it’s become clear that what distinguishes Instagram is that its users have been subjected to even greater manipulation than those of its related media.

    I’ve always kept an eye out for the new thing: Facebook was new, Blogger before that, Friendster before that. MySpace was in there somewhere. There was Foursquare, With, Path, and no doubt several other VC-driven social networks I can’t remember, plus App.net and whatever other indies popped up. Glass is nice. More recently, there’s the crop of fediverse networks like Mastodon and Pixelfed; corporate-fediverse hybrids like Bluesky and Threads, nearly all of which function the same way. Corporate manipulation is only part of the problem. Dispensing with longer and deeper thought is another, joining a mob-minded culture is another, falling victim to political half-truths and outright lies is another.

    Most social platforms eventually bring such detriment to their users. I believe this observation to be true, to be the rule in spite of its occasional exceptions, and if my belief is understood as little more than an informed hunch it is also described elsewhere in extensive study and reportage: we have in the course of the development of these platforms become, on the whole, lonelier, more despairing, more hopeless, more vain, poorer, less likely to receive adequate health care, more violent, less educated, more bigoted, and more prone to rash and destructive behavior. So much for connecting the whole world or whatever. The fact is, most of us were better off before all of this.

    And yet it’s hard to deny the original intent of the web, of the internet, to connect people. Simple as that. It’s never been free of corporate investment and management but their presence was less prominent, less pervasive, less intrusive. Which might not matter to some people but it does to me.

    As it happens, the two platforms I currently enjoy are Bluesky and Micro.blog. I enjoy them because they move at my pace, without algorithmic interference or exploit. I have no idea how Bluesky makes its money and assume it’s something I’ll find disagreeable at some point, but for now I’ve found people I want to follow so I’ll stay put. As for Micro.blog, its community pays to be on the platform. It’s a microblogging platform, mostly, and its founder wrote a book about what that means and why he believes in it. It connects to Threads and the other fediverse platforms, but it also functions as its own network. What I like about it is that its membership believes in the possibility of a different kind of social platform (no likes, no tally of followers), one that can, solely by virtue of its members, remain interesting, informative, and social.

    But to my original remark, I’m backing out of Meta Corporation platforms. Maybe that’s all I mean. It’s the election, of course, and its campaigns. It’s the devolution of news and journalism and the rise of manipulative and untruthful media. It’s all kinds of things. Lies and propaganda leading to reprehensible and awful ends. Again and again, year after year, it’s one thing or another. Just a handful of examples might be Sandy Hook, Pulse, Parkland, Charlottesville, Tree of Life, George Floyd, Kenosha, January 6. All acts and incidents of delusion and hatred, all exacerbated by social media.

    I’m not capable of or responsible for a broad and lasting solution but I don’t see how I can continue to be part of the problem and fail to acknowledge somewhere how dreadful and dangerous this culture has become.

    → 10:09 AM, Nov 11
  • Why Are We Here?

    The U.S. will now be run by a white supremacist authoritarian President and a political party that has chosen to accept that brand as its identity.

    Sherrilyn Ifill

    → 5:04 PM, Nov 7
  • Political Technology

    There is no doubt that a key factor in voters’ swing to Trump is that they associated the inflation of the post-pandemic months with Biden and turned the incumbents out, a phenomenon seen all over the world.

    There is also no doubt that both racism and sexism played an important role in Harris’s defeat.

    But my own conclusion is that both of those things were amplified by the flood of disinformation that has plagued the U.S. for years now. Russian political theorists called the construction of a virtual political reality through modern media “political technology.” They developed several techniques in this approach to politics, but the key was creating a false narrative in order to control public debate. These techniques perverted democracy, turning it from the concept of voters choosing their leaders into the concept of voters rubber-stamping the leaders they had been manipulated into backing.

    Heather Cox Richardson

    → 11:38 AM, Nov 7
  • Marshall

    Brooklyn, NYBrooklyn, NY

    → 9:27 AM, Nov 2
  • Tourists

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 10:09 AM, Oct 30
  • En Route to the Strip

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 10:28 AM, Oct 28
  • Likemindedness

    If I know anyone at all who is not voting the Harris/Walz ticket:

    1. I don’t know them well;
    2. they are not saying so;
    3. they are not voting.

    Does this describe a bubble or a silo or an echochamber? I think these terms were invented to suit a very recent purpose, to explain unforeseen political outcomes in a time dominated by our infatuation with a contemporary version of the internet, not to describe likemindedness as they present it. By and large, likemindedness has always been attractive, for its affirmative powers, its inspiration, its support. Likemindedness is where we get our courage from, where we learn our strengths and weaknesses, where we learn to prosper.

    I believe this idea has been corrupted by the fundamental achievements of current social practice. The platforms did it. The algorithms did it. The infinite scroll, the engagement economy, Surveillance Capitalism, these are the forces and corporations that have created the environment in which we live. Their aim is to know and isolate us in ever-expanding profit-extraction. We are not connected, we are separated. We do not learn, we forget. If we think about it at all, broadly speaking, we think the next post/video/story/dump will be the one that satisfies something in us that did not exist until we started scrolling.

    → 5:12 PM, Oct 27
  • The Atlas of Drowned Towns

    These towns were not randomly submerged. Their disappearance was part of a broader narrative about communities in the American West displaced for—depending on location—hydroelectric power, irrigation, flood control, and a twentieth-century idea of progress. This trend began in the 1920s, accelerated through the go-go years post-World War II, and continued through the Cold War era. It lasted until the 1970s.

    (via Alan Jacobs)

    → 12:44 PM, Oct 24
  • Punch Lines

    Why Are We Humoring Them? | The Atlantic

    The brand of politics that Musk and Carlson practice is swaggering and provocative and, as a result, entirely devoid of shame. And so the two men, wielding their mockery, make a show of each chortle and smirk. They may consider their delight to be defiant—a rebuke to the humorless masses who see the violence and not the lol—but it is not defiant. It is dull. This is the way of things now. The tragedy and the farce, the menace that winks, the joke that threatens, the emoji that cries with joy and the one that simply cries: They bleed together, all of them. Irony storms the Capitol.

    → 8:55 AM, Oct 24
  • Morning With Rita

    It’s early in the morning in my Aunt Rita’s kitchen. In my family we pronounce it “ant,” not “awnt”. Rita and I are at her table, the room is lit by a circular fluorescent light, cool, bluer than I am used to. And is the decor blue and green? Wallpaper, maybe? I can’t remember. I can’t remember when this was, either, except that it must have been after my parent’s divorce, which means I was at least 9 or 10. I conflate it with another visit, years later, when my father, brother, and I were there to celebrate my father’s 50th birthday. I was 17 that year, not much after the earlier memory by the standards of middle age but a lifetime later from the vantage of being 10 or 17.

    I’m sitting with my aunt Rita at her kitchen table. The overhead light, circular, fluorescent, is dimmer and cooler than I am used to. In that room that morning, the light has volume the way water does and everything feels isolated, discrete, yet retains its vividness. Now I remember: we’re drinking coffee, or she’s drinking coffee, and we’re talking about cigarettes which I smoke at that time and maybe just did prior to this meeting but definitely at the time. She hasn’t smoked in many years and is gently prodding me to think about quitting. Not to quit but just to think about it.

    Don’t I get tired of it, she asks? Doesn’t it make me feel bad? I tell her no and I don’t know. She asks me if I know what she hated most about it and I say of course not and we laugh. Of course not, she says. What I hated most was always having to make sure I had them with me, that every time I left the room or the house, I had to make sure I had them with me. It used to drive me crazy, such a crazy thing to worry about. Don’t you worry about that? I tell her I don’t, that I always have them with me, and if I do forget them or run out, I just buy more. She smiles. Of course you do, she says.

    → 7:44 PM, Oct 23
  • View From the Grand Hotel and Casino

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 1:45 PM, Oct 23
  • View From the Grand Hotel and Casino

    “Las“Las
    → 1:42 PM, Oct 23
  • An Attractive Overall Sensation of Wonder and Space

    Ellen Reid ~ Big Majestic | A Closer Listen

    I’ve been listening to Big Majestic quite a bit these last weeks and find that further listening yields further reward. Review and sample via the link above.

    → 8:44 AM, Oct 23
  • An Attractive Overall Sensation of Wonder and Space

    Ellen Reid ~ Big Majestic | A Closer Listen

    I’ve been listening to Big Majestic quite a bit these last weeks and find that further listening yields further reward. Review and sample via the link above.

    → 8:44 AM, Oct 22
  • The Time Is Now

    Very excited about this new release from Isaiah Collier and the Chosen Few. The last couple of Collier releases weren’t to my taste and this one is more like it.

    This track, the opener, is very much in the same McCoy Tyner vein as KAmasi Washington’s “Changing of the Guard.”

    The rest of the album heads in more conventional spiritual jazz territory with dignity, skill, and conviction. Collier is the real deal and if I’m not always into his experiments, I always respect that he’s going for it.

    → 7:26 AM, Oct 22
  • Junked Cars, Planes, Trains

    Artfully Arranged Junkyard Objects

    In a continuation and tweak of his Coletivos project (which I posted about previously), Cássio Vasconcellos took aerial photos of scrapyards and arranged the junked cars, planes, trains, and other objects into dense photographic collages.

    I can’t imagine how much Photoshop work these pieces require.

    → 12:00 AM, Oct 21
  • Ruby

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV
    → 6:38 PM, Oct 19
  • Janet

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 10:25 AM, Oct 18
  • Gavin

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 11:18 AM, Oct 17
  • Katey

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 1:43 PM, Oct 16
  • Jason

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 1:42 PM, Oct 16
  • Chris

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 11:04 AM, Oct 15
  • Claire

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 11:03 AM, Oct 15
  • Brooks

    Las Vegas, NVLas Vegas, NV

    → 10:56 AM, Oct 15
  • Isis, when she offered the model of lamentation to the first Egyptians, said in her lamentation that when eyes do not see, eyes desire.

    Pascal Quignard

    → 11:35 AM, Oct 12
  • Best Friends Forever Festival

    Jamaica, NYJamaica, NY

    Currently posting from the air en route to play the first Best Friends Forever Festival in Las Vegas. We’re on tomorrow afternoon but the festivities start today. Looking forward to seeing friends and family performing and attending alike.

    → 1:25 PM, Oct 11
  • Vanessa

    Lancaster, PALancaster, PA

    → 10:18 AM, Oct 10
  • → 10:18 AM, Oct 10
  • Making a phenomenological speculation here that our valuation of information derives from a historical scarcity, relatively speaking, such that the abundance of information available to us currently is often overvalued, that in fact the very idea of information is overvalued without regard for what the information might be or whom or what it might serve.

    → 10:14 AM, Oct 10
  • → 10:14 AM, Oct 10
  • Robert

    Lancaster, PALancaster, PA

    → 10:41 AM, Oct 9
  • Pete

    Lancaster, PALancaster, PA

    → 5:52 PM, Oct 8
  • Baltimore, MDBaltimore, MD
    → 7:42 AM, Oct 8
  • Clemmie and Lyle

    Baltimore, MDBaltimore, MD

    → 10:06 AM, Oct 7
  • I spoke with Brian Stout over at popMATTERS about New Freedom Sound.

    One way to approach making music is to make a sound that’s reminiscent of something you love, trying to play in a genre. Another is to try to make music that sounds like what we aren’t yet able to hear, to be the guy who comes up with something we haven’t heard. New Freedom Sound is a chance to take what I’m listening to and make it into something I haven’t heard yet. I am confident that my playing in this group is the best I have ever been.

    → 1:52 PM, Oct 3
  • I spoke with Brian Stout over at popMATTERS about New Freedom Sound.

    One way to approach making music is to make a sound that’s reminiscent of something you love, trying to play in a genre. Another is to try to make music that sounds like what we aren’t yet able to hear, to be the guy who comes up with something we haven’t heard. New Freedom Sound is a chance to take what I’m listening to and make it into something I haven’t heard yet. I am confident that my playing in this group is the best I have ever been.

    → 1:52 PM, Oct 3
  • Brooklyn, NYBrooklyn, NY

    My Aunt Rita died yesterday. This photo was taken on her 86th birthday back in 2013. Kimberley and I drove out to see her in New Jersey to deliver our best wishes in person. A few months before this, Chris Ernst, Kimberley, a handful of cousins, and I visited Rita to interview her about our family’s past, about growing up Sephardic in The Bronx during the Depression. We came away from that visit with something like 3 hours of footage I have yet to edit in any way, shape, or form. Shortly after her birthday that year, Rita suffered a partially-debilitating stroke that restricted her movement and speech if not her cognition for the rest of her life. I’ll say more about her later, no doubt, but am posting this, my favorite photo of the two of us, in her memory, which will surely be a blessing for us all.

    → 9:45 AM, Oct 2
  • Blue Line, Chicago, ILBlue Line, Chicago, IL
    → 11:20 AM, Sep 30
  • Red Hook, Brooklyn, NYRed Hook, Brooklyn, NY

    → 8:15 AM, Sep 29
  • Washington, D.C., 2017Washington, D.C., 2017
    → 8:15 PM, Sep 27
  • Atwater Village, Los Angeles, 2017Atwater Village, Los Angeles, 2017

    → 9:30 PM, Sep 25
  • Looking South from W 38 St, Manhattan, New York CityLooking South from W 38 St, Manhattan, New York City

    → 8:45 PM, Sep 19
  • Brooklyn, New YorkBrooklyn, New York

    → 7:45 PM, Sep 14
  • Brooklyn, New YorkBrooklyn, New York

    → 7:08 PM, Sep 14
  • Matthew

    Brooklyn, New YorkBrooklyn, New York

    → 6:42 PM, Sep 14
  • …you would be unable to breathe or likely see at all from the sound pressure, glass would shatter, fog would be generated as the water in the air dropped out of suspension in the pressure waves, your house at this distance would have a roughly 50% chance of being torn apart from sound pressure alone.

    The World’s Loudest Sound

    → 6:32 PM, Sep 14
  • Christine

    Brooklyn, New York

    → 9:37 AM, Sep 12
  • Our City As Their Pretense

    I grew increasingly protective and defensive about New York City, about what it means to those of us who live here, and to this day I have a white-hot resentment of how our town’s grief was used to justify hateful violence without our consent.

    Anil Dash

    → 8:09 AM, Sep 12
  • Out of Frame: Suicide Doors

    1965 Lincoln Continental convertible, Brooklyn, New York City1965 Lincoln Continental convertible, Brooklyn, New York City

    → 11:30 AM, Sep 2
  • Good Luck Always

    (Dr.) Steve Gadd inscription, 1990(Dr.) Steve Gadd inscription, 1990

    → 9:55 AM, Aug 31
  • Alissa

    Brooklyn, New YorkBrooklyn, New York

    → 12:28 PM, Aug 29
  • Expert Fitting

    Glens Falls, NYGlens Falls, NY

    → 7:40 PM, Aug 28
  • Adaptive Emergent Forms and Processes

    All around us we can see parts self-assemble into dynamically alive, adaptive emergent forms and processes. Not only can we see it, but we are part of it, even though our day-to-day habits, our focus on things beyond our bodies, may give us the sense of being observers of objects, separate from what we observe. In fact, we are not walking through the world; we are interwoven with it.

    Neil Theise, Notes on Complexity

    → 7:30 PM, Aug 28
  • Album Whale

    I cam across Album Whale while looking into Good Enough’s blogging platform, Pika. It’s an easy and fun (?) way to make album lists instead of playlists. Although I was at one time an inveterate mixtape-maker, those days have long since disappeared from the rearview and these days I listen almost exclusively to albums. Album Whale is designed with this sort of listening in mind. I’ve made two lists so far, one of my own records (why not?) and one of albums I listen to when I write.

    → 8:50 AM, Aug 24
  • New Music From New Freedom Sound

    Happy release day to our new album, “Two Freedoms!” Available for purchase via Bandcamp and streaming just about everywhere. Enjoy!

    → 6:45 AM, Aug 20
  • Our new album is previewed at BrooklynVegan today! Go get an earful before official release tomorrow. Enjoy!

    www.brooklynvegan.com/stream-ja…

    → 2:01 PM, Aug 19
  • “In Jawbox, Barocas pioneered an influential drum-forward presence that carried through his later projects. In New Freedom Sound, those rhythmic sensibilities are still at the core of the compositions, but they make way for more experimental sounds, objectively drawing from myriad genres.”

    www.daytondailynews.com/lifestyle…

    → 3:51 PM, Aug 18
  • Two Freedoms Pre-Order

    New Freedom Sound, Two FreedomsNew Freedom Sound, Two Freedoms

    We’re now accepting pre-orders for a forthcoming vinyl and digital album entitled Two Freedoms, co-released by The Cultural Society and Sweet Cheetah Records. It’s composed of two works in my ongoing series of Freedoms, the Fourteenth and the Twelfth. These pieces will be available to stream where music streams but they’ll be on Bandcamp first, set for release on August 20.

    → 12:00 PM, Aug 8
  • Church Courtyard

    Courtyard at Saint Paul’s ChurchCourtyard at Saint Paul’s Church

    → 9:14 PM, Aug 5
  • How the Political Wind Blows

    The moment we no longer have a free press, anything can happen. What makes it possible for a totalitarian or any other dictatorship to rule is that people are not informed; how can you have an opinion if you are not informed? If everybody always lies to you, the consequence is not that you believe the lies, but rather that nobody believes anything any longer. This is because lies, by their very nature, have to be changed, and a lying government has constantly to rewrite its own history. On the receiving end you get not only one lie — a lie which you could go on for the rest of your days — but you get a great number of lies, depending on how the political wind blows. And a people that no longer can believe anything cannot make up its mind. It is deprived not only of its capacity to act but also of its capacity to think and to judge. And with such a people you can then do what you please.

    Hannah Arendt

    → 10:58 AM, Aug 4
  • Martha’s

    → 9:35 PM, Aug 3
  • Martha’s Ice Cream

    Queensbury, New YorkQueensbury, New York

    → 3:48 PM, Aug 3
  • → 7:40 AM, Aug 1
  • Theo, Last March

    Handsome TheoHandsome Theo

    → 2:39 PM, Jul 27
  • Goodbye, Little King

    Handsome TheoHandsome Theo

    RIP Lt. Theodopolous “Theo” Kojak,
    our sweet, handsome Little Man,
    aka The Little King,
    2006(?) - 2024.

    → 11:43 AM, Jul 22
  • Good at Explaining Things

    The knee-jerk reaction to my suggestion of picking Buttigieg or Whitmer is obvious: isn’t a black woman at the top of the ticket already asking a lot? Why go with two women, or a black woman and a gay man? Because they’re smart and they’re sharp and they’re good on TV. If you don’t like their message or platform, don’t vote for them. But if you don’t want to vote for a ticket with two women, or a ticket with gay man as VP, just because, then fuck you. Go vote for Trump, because you’re a bigot, and he’s the candidate for you. There are too many racists and sexists in America, but they’re not a majority.

    Jon Gruber / Daring Fireball

    → 4:01 PM, Jul 21
  • Downtown Brooklyn

    Corner of Jay Street and Tillary Street, Brooklyn, New York CityCorner of Jay Street and Tillary Street, Brooklyn, New York City

    → 4:34 PM, Jul 20
  • New Way Lunch

    King of the Hotdogs, Glens Falls, New YorkKing of the Hotdogs, Glens Falls, New York

    → 8:32 PM, Jul 19
  • Domestic Proscenium

    Domestic Proscenium

    Glens Falls, New YorkGlens Falls, New York

    → 1:04 PM, Jul 19
  • Esther and Franklin

    Esther and Franklin

    Cousins, Brooklyn, New York CityCousins, Brooklyn, New York City

    → 8:08 PM, Jul 16
  • Covered Stairs

    Covered Stairs

    Glens Falls, New YorkGlens Falls, New York

    → 12:46 PM, Jul 12
  • Glens Falls, New York

    Glens Falls, New York

    Brick Wall, Glens Falls, NYBrick Wall, Glens Falls, NY

    → 11:56 AM, Jul 11
  • Summer Day

    Summer Day

    Sort of a sunflowerSort of a sunflower

    → 1:30 PM, Jul 8
  • Garden

    Garden

    Brooklyn, New YorkBrooklyn, New York

    → 2:45 PM, Jul 7
  • Threadiverse

    Threadiverse

    Turned on Fediverse-sharing for my Threads account. How could this possibly make anything better? We will see. More likely just another step towards dumping Meta’s social platforms.

    → 9:26 AM, Jul 7
  • The Saddest Story Ever Told

    The Saddest Story Ever Told

    Forsaken and discardedForsaken and discarded

    → 8:18 AM, Jul 7
  • Tom

    Tom

    TomTom

    → 5:38 PM, Jul 6
  • All Stories Are True

    All Stories Are True

    I can no more account for my own past than I can that of the people I lived it with. I think of the title from John Edgar Wideman, All Stories are True: whether or not they are our stories, our own stories, their veracity is determined not so much by verification as by the telling itself. All stories are true. Looking back for example, to the telling of a given joke, a dinner out, a sound check, or whatever makes sense. If I tell the story of the joke, I become the teller of the joke, regardless of who told it in the first place. An upstanding storyteller credits the original jokester, but even in so doing the joke becomes a story and the story is theirs to tell, and then the story is their story.

    I’ve read two things this morning that bring this narrative axiom to mind. First, this story in the New York Times which shares, in some ways, a good deal with my own, or at least enough that I see myself in parts of it, nd I will no doubt write about this elsewhere.

    The other is Hanif Adurraqib’s heartbreakingly beautiful There’s Always this Year whose version of events is entirely poetic, not short on details or chronology but very much in a contemporary mode of Pound’s “gists & piths,” concentrations of image and feeling that supersede the requirements of conventional biography or memoir.

    The telling in these examples obviates any need to factcheck or amend any part of the stories. They don’t need it. And even if part of the author’s experience is to bear witness to their own past sufferings and loves and crises and aspirations, by the time it resolves into a story they tell, the salient aspect of it all is whether or not it rings true. To extend the metaphor, bells are tuned in their making, and if they are to ring true to their intended pitch, they might require some internal reshaping to achieve it. I’m sure if you’re still reading this you catch my drift.

    I face this question all the time in my own writing: how much of what I want to say do I remember correctly? And how much can I get wrong before it’s a different story? I believe that to remember at all is to retune the bell, so to speak, to reshape some portion of the story to suit how I feel now about what happened then, but to do it in a way that the overall shape of the events remains intact, so the bell still looks like a bell.

    → 9:53 AM, Jul 6
  • Wallet- and Housecleaning

    Wallet- and Housecleaning

    Our friend Ian Prince turned Kimberley and me on to the phrase “I need to clean my wallet” as an operative metaphor for getting one’s act together, e.g. paying bills, sorting receipts, making lists, updating, etc.

    The mundane stuff that can stack up on you, especially if you’re self-employed and maintain interests outside of your livelihood.

    Handsome aging TheoHandsome aging Theo

    In addition to a vet visit for poor Theo whose aging body just can’t seem to find any traction, we’ll be celebrating our independence today with some wallet- and housecleaning.


    🎧: Bruce Liu: Waves (Music by Satie)

    → 7:15 AM, Jul 4
  • Mark

    Mark

    MarkMark

    → 11:07 AM, Jun 29
  • Rosie

    Rosie

    Rosie at Atomic BooksRosie at Atomic Books

    → 11:02 AM, Jun 29
  • J.

    J.

    J. Robbins acoustic performance at Atomic BooksJ. Robbins acoustic performance at Atomic Books

    → 10:57 AM, Jun 29
  • Janet

    Janet

    Janet at Atomic BooksJanet at Atomic Books

    → 10:45 AM, Jun 29
  • I Do Not Want to Choose

    I Do Not Want to Choose

    What counts is to be human and simple. No, what counts is to be true, and then everything fits in, humanity and simplicity. When am I truer than when I am the world? What I wish for now is no longer happiness but simply awareness. I hold onto the world with every gesture, to [humankind] with all my gratitude and pity. I do not want to choose between the right and wrong sides of the world, and I do not like a choice. The great courage is still to gaze as squarely at the light as at death. Besides, how can I define the link that leads from this all-consuming love of life to this secret despair? In spite of much searching, this is all I know.

    Albert Camus

    → 7:27 PM, Jun 22
  • Yeah, I Play Drums

    Yeah, I Play Drums

    Yeah, I play drums hatYeah, I play drums hat

    Truth in hats.

    → 9:55 AM, Jun 22
  • My Life With Peter Gabriel: Part Eight

    My Life With Peter Gabriel: Part Eight

    Is anything as simple as we remember it? No more so than as complicated. And looking back in this case, vis à vis Peter Gabriel, is a way of simplifying things: my adolescence, my development as a musician. I’m not sure this a problem, really, or a diminishment of anything. To successfully tell the whole story of a life with no point of entry or guidepost is to enter a narration of unusual skill and lengthy and committed work, things that either elude me or are simply not where I’m at. Another digression.

    Jawbox left for tour in February, 1994. For Your Own Special Sweetheart was released on February 8 that year, so it was right around then. We spent something like 6 weeks in the U.S. with Girls Against Boys, friends from previous bands and progenitors of a certain kind of life-by-night music populated most often by the wit and hustle of a single consciousness, often broke, sometimes without a ride or a home but always in the game.

    L-R, White Sands, NM, February, 1994: Eli Janney, Bill Barbot, Mike Harbin (falling forward), Me (getting the finger from Bill), Johnny Temple, J. Robbins, Alexis Fleisig. Photo (probably) by Kim Coletta, but it might have been Scott McCloud or Whitney O’Keeffe.L-R, White Sands, NM, February, 1994: Eli Janney, Bill Barbot, Mike Harbin (falling forward), Me (getting the finger from Bill), Johnny Temple, J. Robbins, Alexis Fleisig. Photo (probably) by Kim Coletta, but it might have been Scott McCloud or Whitney O’Keeffe.

    We returned home briefly, came here to New York to do some press and television stuff before we left for Europe. Although it was our first rodeo, our first intimate experience with the mainstream entertainment business, we enjoyed it.1 We played well and found a larger audience, and those were our goals.

    Our European tour is a blur. Again, memory being what it is, I’ve always thought we were there for 60 days but it was 51 days, and I thought we played 51 shows but it was 42 shows.2 I can’t say for certain but my guess is that if you asked each of us who was on that tour3 what we remember about it, we would come up with things that don’t ring a bell for the others. Nevertheless, this is my version of events as it relates to one specific thread: the presence of Peter Gabriel in my life. And so, or rather, but first:

    Vague memories from Europe:

    • I’ve never gone so long without doing laundry; I’ve never showered so infrequently. I threw most of my clothes away before we flew home.
    • I visited an emergency room in Ulm, Germany to have a cyst removed from my left earlobe in an open air examining room.
    • I was struck nearly silent to learn exactly what “you’re welcome” means from a pharmacist in Hannover who sold me some superaspirin and following my expression of thanks replied, “You’re welcome anytime.”
    • So many cathedrals!
    • We had a few extra hours in Munich and decided to visit Dachau instead of a Biergarten. One of our hosts, upon learning I am a Jew said, “Of course you’ll go to Dachau. All the Jews go to Dachau.” Chilling for its double entendre. What a schmuck.
    • I called my father collect from a pay phone in the Dachau parking lot.
    • We performed in England, the Netherlands, France, Spain, Austria, Switzerland, Germany, Poland, Denmark, Belgium, Scotland, and Italy (not in that order).
    • All of the shows went well except Zurich where we were booked at a squat that had effectively closed the previous week due to its director’s suicide. The only people there were, as I recall, a developmentally disabled guy sweeping around who helped us set up the “club,” and the Hare Krishnas who made their regular food delivery. We played the show to Harbin and Christy and the sweeper. Where did we sleep?
    • No less than we weren’t, we were a punk band.
    • We had mail and fax drops at specific locations to hear from or communicate to our label, promoters, family, and friends. No cellphones, of course, and no money for frequent long-distance calls.4
    • Everyone we met and worked with over there was friendly, helpful, and kind except the German mentioned above andd maybe one guy in Austria. One of us is currently married to someone we met in Belgium.
    • Barcelona is the most attractive place I have ever been. At the age of 24 I decided it is where I would like to go to die. A visit in 2022 confirmed that I still feel this way.
    • Bookstores are havens everywhere.

    And yet I still haven’t gotten to the Peter Gabriel part. Here it is: the tour was arduous and difficult, though no more so than such things were known to have been among our cohort. But that made it all seasier to swallow, not easier to do. As it happened, though, we had few equipmwnt failures, only one prohibitive van breakdown, and got along well enough with each other. But we were pretty beat by the time we got to Amsterdam. It was the second-to-last show of the tour and we were all kind of sleepwalking by then, almost done but not quite, almost on our way home but not quite. In some confusion or other, J.’s backpack was either stolen or emptied by thieves. It was disheartening and inconvenient at a moment when bandwidth was in short supply. We weren’t chatting much.

    In a hallway near our dressing room the was a piano, presumably rolled offstage to make room for our show. We’d all sort of taken turns plinking away at one thing or another. But then J. eased into the chords from “Here Comes the Flood,” a song that I had never heard anyone except Peter Gabriel play. I had never been in close proximity to that progression, and combined with the exhaustion and overelation of the day was very nearly moved to tears. I don’t rememember if J. played it all the way through. I’m sure one of us sang along, if only briefly. I’m also sure I blabbed about how we should cover the song, an impulsive reaction to its beauty and my desire to possess it and let it speak for me as it always had, an inner attenuation of doubt and racket and need expressed outwardly.


    1. Not without some trepidation, though. I avoided press altogether for fear of botching it; and J., Kim, and Bill did their best in spite of nerves racked by adrenaline and exhaustion. Watch J. and Kim’s interview segments on 120 Minutes for a look at fried fish out of water. And yet, we were having a wonderful time!↩︎

    2. Which is what I mean about memory. So much storytelling over 30 years can stretch and contract things more than one might think. I don’t think my misrememberance changes anything but it’s nice to have looked it up. For what it’s worth, I also saw that our last show on the U.S. tour was on March 24 and our first show in Europe was on April 1. For perspective, on April 30 we played a youth center in Poznan, Poland (it’s undergone some serious renovation in the last 30 years); on July 30 we played The Gorge in George, WA.↩︎

    3. In addition to the band, there was Mike Harbin running sound and otherwise helping out, and Christy Colcord, an experienced tour driver who knew the U.K. and Continental ropes well. Indispensable.↩︎

    4. Which kind of don’t exist anymore, or don’t have to for many of us.↩︎

    → 10:10 AM, Jun 20
  • Adam and Me

    Adam and Me

    Adam Pfahler and me, Bottom of the Hill, SF, CA, 1996Adam Pfahler and me, Bottom of the Hill, SF, CA, 1996

    → 3:00 PM, Jun 19
  • One World Trade From TriBeCa

    One World Trade From TriBeCa

    One World Trade Center as seen from TriBeCa, New York CityOne World Trade Center as seen from TriBeCa, New York City

    → 6:50 PM, Jun 18
  • In Rotation: June 16, 2024

    In Rotation: June 16, 2024

    Reading:

    Cory Doctorow, The Internet Con: How to Seize the Means of Computation
    Abraham Joshua Heschel, God in Search of Man: A Philosophy of Judaism
    Andi Zeisler, We Were Feminists Once: From Riot Grrrl to Covergirl®: the Buying and Selling of a Political Movement

    Ongoing:

    Hanif Aburraqib, There’s Always This Year
    Robert A. Caro, The Powerbroker (Follow along on 99 Percent Invisible)

    Listening:

    Beings, There Is a Garden
    Taylor Duepree, Sti.ll
    Tom Skinner, Voices of Bishara Live at “mu”
    Laurie Spiegel, The Expanding Universe

    Watching:

    Dev Patel, Monkey Man

    → 6:53 PM, Jun 16
  • Joshua Tree

    Joshua Tree

    Desert brush, Joshua Tree National Park, 2018Desert brush, Joshua Tree National Park, 2018

    → 2:54 PM, Jun 16
  • Another Bowery View

    Another Bowery View

    Bowery, Manhattan, New York CityBowery, Manhattan, New York City

    → 6:33 PM, Jun 15
  • Mark Cisneros

    Mark Cisneros

    Mark Cisneros warming up his piccoloMark Cisneros warming up his piccolo

    Mark Cisneros, New Freedom Sound session. Magpie Cage, Baltimore, MD, January, 2023.

    → 1:00 PM, Jun 13
  • Chef Table Chair

    Chef Table Chair

    Bowery, Manhattan, New York CityBowery, Manhattan, New York City

    → 7:33 PM, Jun 11
  • Remains Irrefutable

    Remains Irrefutable

    I’m not convinced that time spent away from our feeds and infinite scrolling would necessarily lead all of us to elusive medical cures, artistic masterpieces, or world-healing peace negotiations. Most of us would watch television like we used to, or do nothing as we seem to have done before that. But one irrefutable condition in our current era is that something has made us more selfish, meaner, quicker to lash out, more likely to join a mob, more likely to scapegoat. And these phenomena at least coincide with the time we spend scrolling, and if the causal relationship I’m suggesting seems to you impossible or unlikely, the concurrence of these shifts remains irrefutable.

    → 2:33 PM, Jun 11
  • Marital Arts

    Marital Arts

    Bowery, Manhattan, New York CityBowery, Manhattan, New York City

    → 2:24 PM, Jun 11
  • Lieu and Theo

    Lieu and Theo

    Lieu and Theo looking out the windowLieu and Theo looking out the window

    → 3:41 PM, Jun 9
  • Smith Union Market

    Smith Union Market

    Smith Union Market, Carroll Gardens, BrooklynSmith Union Market, Carroll Gardens, Brooklyn

    → 7:06 AM, Jun 9
  • Things I Bought for $1.00 at Bodegas and Delis When I Moved to New York City in 1997

    Things I Bought for $1.00 at Bodegas and Delis When I Moved to New York City in 1997

    1. 4 cigarettes
    2. 1 butter roll1
    3. 1 small coffee
    4. 1 banana
    5. 1 apple
    6. 1 Bic lighter
    7. 1 12oz can of beer
    8. 1 Subway token2
    9. 1 roll of Scottissue
    10. 1 disposable razor
    11. 1 bar of Ivory soap
    12. 2 Advil Cold and Sinus
    13. 1 large chocolate chip cookie
    14. 1 1oz bag of any Frito-Lay product
    15. 1 Lip balm
    16. 1 bagel, dry
    17. 1 pair of black crew socks
    18. 1 slice of pizza
    19. 2 hard boiled eggs
    20. 2 AA batteries 3
    21. 1 bandana
    22. 1 #10 (business) envelope
    23. 1 postage stamp

    1. Simply a buttered kaiser roll. One of the chief culinary assets of New York City is the ubiquity of at-least-decent kaiser rolls. One can order almost any grill-cooked food on a roll. The kaiser roll is the basic unit of bodega/deli fare.↩︎

    2. The fare at the time was $1.50. I normally shied away from the token resale/slug market but desperation can determine unusual patterns of behavior.↩︎

    3. e.g. “Evercharge.” If they worked at all they lasted no more than 6 hours.↩︎

    → 12:04 PM, Jun 7
  • Selection and Juxtapostion

    Selection and Juxtapostion

    Playlists | Teju Cole

    I have been making playlists for a long time, and mixtapes before that — for about thirty years all told, I reckon. I’m fascinated by selection and juxtaposition. In early 2016 I signed up for a Spotify account. It’s a limited platform, and a problematic one. But it is also where people gather, and it has been a productive place to imagine and be with a community of listeners.

    → 12:00 AM, Jun 6
  • A Weird Inevitability

    A Weird Inevitability

    Understanding The Impossibly Far-Reaching Influence Of This Heat | NPR, August 21, 2020

    In 1975, as the U.S. fled Saigon and Margaret Thatcher’s Conservative Party began its slow ascent, two multi-instrumental veterans of the London rock underground, Charles Hayward and Charles Bullen, recruited self-proclaimed “non-musician” Gareth Williams to start a defiant rock trio. Taking the name This Heat, the three decamped, ironically, to a once-refrigerated food locker in an abandoned meat pie factory, overrun by a confederation of zealous artists. This Heat called their home Cold Storage.

    → 12:00 AM, Jun 4
  • Mecca, California, 2018

    Mecca, California, 2018

    Abandoned store, Mecca, CAAbandoned store, Mecca, CA

    → 12:00 AM, Jun 2
  • A Discussion Always Imminent When the Name of This Writer Is Brought Forward

    A Discussion Always Imminent When the Name of This Writer Is Brought Forward

    Leaves of Grass, by Walt Whitman | The Atlantic, January, 1882

    If [critics] can see nothing in this book except indecency and bombastic truisms, the inference must be that their sensibilities are not delicate enough to recognize the fresh, strong, healthy presentation of common things in a way that revivifies them, the generous aspiration, the fine sympathy with man and nature, the buoyant belief in immortality, which are no less characteristic of the author than his mistaken boldness in displaying the carnal side of existence, and his particularity in describing disease or loathsome decay.

    → 12:00 AM, Jun 2
  • My Life With Peter Gabriel: Part Seven

    My Life With Peter Gabriel: Part Seven

    By the time I got to writing or arranging my beats for what became Jawbox’s final album (called Jawbox, known as Self-Titled) I was working from a very different point of view. I had gone from trying to emulate my favorites to trying to integrate them into something else altogether. It started, though, as I’ve said previously, in my beats for Sweetheart. I think this sort of development is, in itself, a definitive leap in the working lives of many artists, moving from an imitative art to an innovative one. I’m not critical of derivative or imitative art. It is precisely these kinds of art that make genres intelligible and keep traditions alive. And being imitative in one area does not mean one doesn’t innovate in another, and further, failed imitation is a starting point for much innovation. What I was after, what so many of the musicians I knew back then were after, was precisely this sort of development. And for a handful of years there, it looked like the music business was interested, too. In this light, Jawbox’s era was no less subjected to its own limitations and necessities than any other. Much of our success in the music business hinged on audiences being able to understand us as alternative. In the end, of course, we weren’t alternative or else the market wasn’t, and in either case, our relatively short career at Rockefeller Center was over within four calendar years. But, as we say, I digress.

    So what I wanted was to innovate, and the surest way I saw to do this was to incorporate influences from outside our cohort. There were a few reasons for this desire, all of varying practicality, and all rooted to their moment. First, I wasn’t confident playing other people’s music. My dynamic sensibility was usually off,1 or I sped up or slowed down what the composer had in mind. I felt I wasn’t good at what we call “straight time,” 4/4 time played straight ahead. My shortcomings, as I saw them, were masked by adopting certain rhythms and feels that might accommodate slight shifts in tempo or feel. One eventually favored gesture was to move my snare hits, conventionally on the two and four of 4/4 time2 to just before or after those beats. And although I experimented with this before I heard Manu Katché’s playing on the choruses of “In Your Eyes,” I had never heard it flow in the direction I was after. So when we got to writing “Savory,” which I might have mentioned previously as our best known song, I found a perfect opportunity to try the feel I’d been messing with. It didn’t fit the verses, a beat which derived from a contemporaneous Neville Brothers fascination, as I recall, but it did shape the choruses:

    There are other examples elsewhere but these seems to suffice for the current purpose. As time went on, I came to further internalize these rhythms, to make them my own, to adjust according to our group’s needs and my own abilities. For further observation, I direct you to “Reel” (“In Your Eyes” again), and “Green Glass,” which derived from the choruses of “Shaking the Tree.”

    These efforts didn’t result in rip-offs, I don’t think, in part because the contexts are so different, but also because my intention was more investigation that tribute. The point wasn’t to show how great Katché was, or how cool I was for knowing it. The point was to bring something I loved to something I did to see if there was room for both in the music we were making.


    1. e.g. too loud most of the time. I’m still too loud most of the time.↩︎

    2. For the uninitiated, 4/4 is a musical signature that determines a four beat measure (count to four — 1-2-3-4 — and then start over again) with a quarter note as the basic unit of measure. So each of the beats one counts in 4/4 is a 1/4 note, one of the four included in the measure. Most popular music in 4/4 has the drums follow a pattern in which the kick drum is played on the 1 and 3 of the measure, and the snare drum played on the 2 and four. This pattern in this measure forms the basis of rock music rhythm.↩︎

    → 12:00 AM, Jun 1
  • This One Time

    This One Time

    my friend Jason and I were walking down 6th Avenue to meet some friends at a bar on Houston. I can’t recall where we were coming from but it’s possible he was meeting me after work1 and we decided to walk down 6th and then cut east on Houston. It was summer, still light out. As memory serves,2 we were headed to Zinc Bar but a cursory internet search reveals that Zinc Bar is on E 3rd St. so it’s unlikely we would have headed that way.

    Most likely, however, is that I’m conflating evenings downtown with Jason back then: there were many and they frequently started at 14th Street (his train was the F or the 6, mine the L) or at the video store. We mostly drank at Marion’s Continental on Bowery between E 4th and Great Jones; or for a couple years starting in 1999 if we felt like staying in Brooklyn we’d go to Enid’s. At both places our friends were the bartenders or the bartenders became our friends and made everything as affordable as possible, which mattered because we didn’t have much money but we drank alot. That is, I drank alot, so it seemed to me that everyone did. In any case, we almost always headed east before going farther downtown.

    Which, all told, isn’t what I was thinking about. I was thinking about how this one time Jason and I were walking to meet some friends for drinks and in the course of our no doubt chatty and engrossing walk down 6th Avenue, a bird shat on my shirt, and not just a little bit but a sizeable drop — plop! — right onto my guayabera.3 Without missing a step or a syllable of our discourse, I peeled off the shirt, dropped it in a garbage can, and with a leading tap on Jason’s arm, ducked into the Gap to buy a tee shirt4. The entire incident, from bird drop to resumption of our path took less than 3 minutes. I think of this anecdote as typical of the way things were back then, always in motion, always moving in one direction or other, often en route to meet someone on the way to meet someone else. Bird shits on you? Get a clean shirt and keep moving.


    1. I worked at a video store on W 8th Street between 6th Avenue and MacDougal at the time, he worked up in the 40s on Lexington.↩︎

    2. Not very well as it turns out. Memory is, on balance, a lousy steward. A point I seem to encounter often.↩︎

    3. Back then, when one could still hagggle for clothes on 14th Street from 8th Avenue to First Avenue on the south side of the street, I used to buy guayaberas for no more than $9.99 apiece. My preference then for button-down shirts with collars delighted in these nearly-fashionable bargains. They were, from 1997-2001, almost the entirety of my spring and summer shirt wardrobe. Such flair and so many pockets. Also easily replaced.↩︎

    4. There were, at that time, probably 3-4 Gap stores on Sixth Avenue between 14th Street and Houston. I always wondered why there were so many, until the incident described above set me straight. The Gap was there for me when I needed it most. I should add that back then all Gap tees were $9.99, a price I found agreeable for a shirt, even one without buttons or pockets.↩︎

    → 12:00 AM, May 29
  • Wind and Trees

    Wind and Trees

    One way of seeing it is wind in trees. Another is trees in wind.

    → 12:00 AM, May 28
  • Quelle Castastrophe

    Quelle Castastrophe

    Neglecting Beckett | Mark O’Connell for New York Review of Books

    There is something strange about watching a middlebrow entertainment about, of all people, Samuel Beckett. It’s as perverse, in its way, as listening to a power ballad about the life and work of John Cage.

    → 12:00 AM, May 26
  • On Break

    → 12:00 AM, May 25
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